have you ever had one of those moment when you're just like "i'm not going to say anything anymore. ever ever ever!!!!!" well, that's basically my life right now.
i'm one of those people who can express their feelings to anyone and then regret it the minute the vicious words pour out of my mouth. yes i know i know everyone has told me "think before you speak" but honestly how can i even do that when you're i'm in the zone of pouring my feelings out. i don't know.. is it just me?
i don't trust anyone. well anymore shall i say. THERE, i said it. yes, it is quite a harsh thing to say but i've had it come back and bitch slap in the face so many times before. where you know the truth about the rumour but you ask the person just to check what they are going to say. and what happens they LIE. LIES LIES LIES!!! fvck i hate them. it's a girl thing, i know. we ask people questions even though we know the answers. but i know i do it because im scared of lies, i feel like an idiot when i believe a lie so what do i do, quadruple check a statement so i don't look like a idiot. ( now that i'm typing this out i realise what a pshyco i actually am)
so you may ask yourself what happens when i let my gaurd down. well... let me tell you a story.
i could be speaking to a guy and all these things he is telling me are just too good i would just want to marry him right there and then well.... i used to believe all those things he told me till we went out one night and he asked me to check something on is phone and i saw it. "Its like that thing called belief reached out the phone and slapped me. he was saying the same thing the to other girls. it was right there infront of my eyes. what a dick.
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